Archive for September, 2014

For I would not brethren, have you ignorant of my affliction which came to me by way of cancer. That I was pressed out of measure, beyond strength, insomuch that I despaired even of life. But I had the sentence of death on myself, that I should not trust in myself, but in God which raiseth the dead. Who delivered me from so great a death, and continues to deliver:

Paul writes these words in First Corinthians 1:8-10a. The only difference being, where I said I, he says us, and cancer in place of Asia.

December 25, 2010, I was told that I had stage 4 cancer and  I was devastated. Later I was told, you have stage 4  lymphoma cancer and leukemia (SLL/CLL). Like most, I tried to keep most of my fears inside, not wanting the world to know my apprehensions. Plus I was told that the kind of cancer I had, would take a long time to attrition. I was even told that probably something else would kill me before my cancer did. Yet at that time, the thought of my life here in this body, coming to and end, troubled me greatly.

As I became more knowledgeable about the cancer I had, I began to realize that not everything my doctors were telling me were complete. The more I found out, the more I realized that my death, may be sooner than later.

It was certainly true that many with the cancer I have, live long lives. As much as twenty-five years and ever more after diagnosis. But I found, that within my type of cancer, there are many factors that determine life expectancy. Also after being told that it would be many years before anything would be needed to be done. I was told just after eight months from diagnosis, that I would need to start chemotherapy.

After having a test called FISH (florescence in situ hybridization), which is used to look at genes or chromosomes in cells and tissues. I asked about my results, and was told I had a 92% deletion of the 17p chromosome. That put me in the high risk category for a very aggressive cancer. Upon questioning my Oncologist further, it was finally told to me that chemotherapy usually has no effect. Eventually I was told in June of 2012 that the only course of action left for me, was a stem cell transplant, or a clinical trial. Currently there are other treatments now, and good ones, Ibrutinib being just one.

Being to old for a successful stem cell transplant, a clinical trial was the only thing left. After being told sorry, the trial I was signed up for, had been filled, I felt a very deep feeling of loss.

Well the rest of the story I have written about in previous blogs, so I will not repeat myself. But after almost two and half years from that feeling of loss, I quote those verses above. For my Father in heaven, gave me the trust in Him, I needed. He is the One who loves me, and everyone else, more that we can imagine. How do I know this, because He sent his only begotten, only beloved son, to take our place. He, Jesus the Christ received condemnation, we received forgiveness. He, Jesus the Christ, received death, we received life.

Now it is true, that many will not, and do not accept or believe this. But for those who do believe, then His condemnation gives them forgiveness, and His death, gives them life, and that life is to be with Him forever.

I have heard it said,  “It is a cancer that doesn’t kill you.” I know this is said with well meaning in mind. But this cancer has no mercy, and does kill everyday. I know, I have spoken with many in these past years, who have died because of it.

It has also been said, “positive thinking has really made a change for you. ”I have no positive thinking or positive thought concerning my cancer.  I say, “have mercy upon me, O LORD; for I am weak: O LORD, heal me; for my bones are vexed.” and He does daily. I say “Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved; for thou art my praise.” and He does.

The centurion tells Jesus that his servant is at home sick. Jesus says, I will come and heal him.

Thank you Lord, my prayer is that all would know the immeasurable and eternal love you have for them.


Well, after six months, I had blood taken, and the results were just wonderful again. I seem to be doing very well. My platelets are still below minimum, but far above what they were two years ago. I thank the God of Israel for continuing good health.

I have a grandson by the name of Isaac, (which means, to laugh) and often when I think about him, I am reminded of the story of Abraham and his son Isaac. And as I was happy when Isaac was born, Abraham and Sarah laughed with joy, and was happy when their Isaac was born.

As you may recall, God put Abraham to a test. He told Abraham to take his only son Isaac, whom you love, and offer him as a burnt offering.

Abraham did as God instructed him. So when Abraham and Isaac got to the top of the mountain, Isaac said to his father, “Father, behold the fire and the wood: but where is the burnt offering?” Abraham’s reply was, “My son, God will provide himself a lamb for a burnt offering.”

As all of you know, just as Abraham was about to plunge the knife into Isaac, an angel of the LORD, called unto Abraham and said, “Lay not thy hand upon the lad, neither do thou anything unto him: for now I know you yare’ (fear, revere, or stand in awe of) me.”

When we read about this moment in history, many wonder how God, could not have known, that Abraham, already stood in awe of Him. Yet we know that God is omniscient, and that He already knew, that Abraham, reverenced Him. We also know that Abraham was called a friend of God, and believed God, and it was counted unto him for righteousness.

By faith Abraham, when he was tried, offered up Isaac; and he that had received the promises offered up his only begotten son. Of whom it was said, “That in Isaac shall thy seed be called.” For he reasoned that God was able to raise Isaac up even from among the dead, from whence he also received him in a figure. The word figure, is translated from the Hebrew word parabole, which means parable. Now a parable, in layman’s terms, is known as an earthly story with a heavenly meaning.

So why did the Spirit of God have this story written down?

God was showing Abraham, His plan of salvation for all, and is now giving Israel and us, an earthly account of what He was already doing in heaven. He was showing us by the story of Isaac, how much He loves us, and that He was sending His son, whom He loved. His only begotten son, to be our sacrificial lamb. As the ram was a substitute for Isaac, so the Son of God would be a substitute for us.

This story always reminds me of the unfathomable love, that the God of Israel, has for you and me. In this telling of Abraham and Isaac, his only beloved son, we clearly can see Jesus Christ, the only begotten son of God, who was sacrificed for our sins.

The LORD of all creation, shows us what He has done, even before time began. He shows us in Isaac,  how He gave His only beloved son, that as He provided a ram for Abraham, He has provided a lamb, the Lamb of God, a sacrifice for us.

Justice was served by a just and holy God. The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, in all His love and grace, for us, gave His only begotten Son, to take all the sins, sickness, hatreds, and wrongs, that we, His created did, do, and will do, and placed them on His only begotten son, a sacrifice, to satisfy and fulfil the Law.

Jesus Christ (Jehoshua the Messiah), he who was without sin, knows that sin is so evil, so hideous, so deadly, that no one but Himself would ever be able to pay for it. He stood in our place, hanging on a tree, so the payment required for sin, and that last enemy of God, death, would be defeated.

Death claimed its victim, and justice was paid, by the Creator of all things. He who loves us more than we know; He who holds all thing together, raised the Son from the dead, and death was forever defeated. And He proclaimed that all who would call upon the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, would be saved from this death.

Jesus said to Martha, “I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die.”

So when I think about my grandson Isaac, I am always reminded of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.                                                                                                     The one who loves us and showers us daily with His grace.